Taking Control...

So, we have our house up for sale, and it has been for almost 2 months now. We have a contract on another home on 1 acre that we love. We have had 2 showings in 2 months time, and sometimes it is SO hard to be patient. I would say that it is not hard to TRUST that the Lord will do what He wants to do in our situation, but sometimes my actions speak otherwise, and that is what this blog is about.

When we put our house up for sale, 3 friends on FB put theirs up about the exact same time. All three of them sold their homes in the FIRST WEEK of it on the market! I saw one of those friends at the mall today, and it just put me in a spin of: WHAT ARE WE DOING WRONG?

Sometimes as women, our fear makes us try to take control of our situations. And that is sadly what I did today. I came home from the mall, and just started grasping for any reason why our house is not selling, out of fear. I looked at all the numbers, shared it on FB, and then wrote my realtor an email asking for insight into what is going wrong. I was in fear, and I chose to take control in any way that I could. It is an ABSOLUTELY out of my control situation, but I am trying in some way to control it! Dang.

I wanted so bad to take that email back and apologize to my realtor. But as soon as I realized what that email really represented, which was me trying to take control, I asked forgiveness from the One that I really owed it to. If I am going to trust Him FULLY, I need to heed all control to Him. It is out of my control, but my selfishness was trying to gain some. Not cool self. Not cool.

Lord, I do pray that you would forgive me for when I tried to take control of this situation. Help me to see when I do this again, and in other situations. I trust YOU. I trust YOU. I look forward to seeing your love, and faithfulness to me and my family through the outcome of this whole situation, whatever that outcome may be. I love you.

... Heather

Becoming Myself (1)...

I am so grateful that my favorite author in the world decided to come out with a new book. It is called: Becoming Myself. Lord, you have already spoken, uplifted, reminded, and encouraged me through this book SO much. The last chapter encouraged us to write out a list of things that we dream of... What are your dreams? I am going to attempt to write some down. Here goes nothing!

• I dream for all of my children to grow up knowing my God. Knowing You as you truly are, and loving You, and walking with You every day of their lives, through it all. 
• I dream for my husband to LOVE his job. For him to be able to have a job that he can delight in. A job that allows him to flourish in his true self. 
• I dream to always have the self control enough I need to stay a size that I am comfortable in. A size that creates no worries in me. 
• I dream to be able to go on vacation to Seagrove every summer of our children's lives. 
• I dream to be a photographer for a really long time, but to always be able to have a good balance of work and home.
• I dream to have a photo of mine published one day.
• I dream that my children will be successful at their dreams. That they will be able to do the things that they love always. 
• I dream that our family will always be very tight, very close, loving, and a team. 
• I dream that we can have a house with some land. A home that we can grow in and be in for a long time. A home that we can sit on the porch and watch the storms roll in, and just enjoy being with each other. 
• I dream for constant, at least almost constant, joy in our home. That we will laugh more, enjoy more, be more us together. 
• I dream to always take care of my family well.
• I dream to have my own garden and be able to grow some of our own food. 
• I dream to always be an energetic mom, always be my kids cheerleader, biggest fan, yet be good and truthful and everything they truly need. 
• I dream to grow old with Dylan. To be together always, and be able to sit on our porch when we are in our 70's look at each other and just be grateful and joyful for the life that we have lived together. 
• I dream for You God to have your fame spread through me and my family. I desire for you to use us in any way that you see fit, for you to have glory in our lives in every way.
• I dream to always define beauty for myself in a way that glorifies you and in a way that is different to the world. 
• I dream to always embrace the creativity you have placed in my heart, and to always let it shine out and never to be embarrassed of it. To take chances with it. 
• I dream to always have good friends. 
• I dream to play more music, to not neglect that passion. 
• I dream for a new house, did I say that already? ;)

Father, I am challenged by dreaming. It does not come as easily as I would think that it would. That is interesting to me. I want to dream for the things that are of you. I pray that if all of these things you see as good, that they will come true! May it be so! How exciting would that be. I love you my God. You are my one true thing. My constant, and my place, my only place of pure contentment and peace. I know this FULL well.